I feel so damn useless. Worthless. But I’m not even depressed right now. Completely indifferent. Like I’ve accepted this apathetic uselessness of a life I’m living at the moment.
Really weird feeling
But I definitely don’t like it
Sad part is it’s 100% self-induced. I could probably change everything, seeing as I know the problem and some of the things necessary to turn it all around. But I haven’t even taken a step towards it.
I feel so..unmotivated
Pathetic.
I guess a decent chunk of my bothers is the lack of anyone to talk to. About anything. Yes there are people that care. That I know. I just can’t talk to them. It doesn’t help. Only exacerbates this retarded ass shit I feel.
Not even my mom, the one I’ve turned to so often for basic comfort.
I guess that’s a small part of the reason I type this. But mostly just because seeing this problem might help break my apathy towards it. Feeling a bit better that’s for sure
Maybe I’ll clean up a little bit around here. Been getting out of hand lately. I’m surprised the dishes don’t smell.
BTw I apologize to anyone who actually reads this. Noone likes seeing semi-depressing shit. I promise it’s just a rare occurrence. Thanks though.